I want to be where God had been pointing me. I want the things He wants for me. I want to have "finished the race" well.
I just don't want to do any of the hard work to get me there.
It's not just in dealing with my food issues and training for the race. It's in cleaning. It's doing my laundry. It's in digging deep with the Lord in areas that He wants to surrender. It's budgeting my finances. It's spending time in The Word. It's taking time to worship.
My complacency is literally bleeding into every area of my life.
So, what to do?
Not sure yet.
I think that my first step might be asking God to change my heart to help me be more disciplined.