Exactly one year ago, I was at a dear friends apartment with my then-boyfriend. It was a New Year's Eve party like no other I'd ever been to. We ate food, laughed, told jokes, got to know one another better. Then, at 11:30ish, someone whipped out a guitar and we all sang worship songs. We didn't know when midnight happened because we were so focused on worshiping our Lord and Savior. I don't remember how long we sang. But, it was sweet. I loved celebrating Jesus and thanking Him for life, and the opportunity to worship Him with our lives.
This past year has been a whirlwind.
If anyone told me that I would be spending New Year's Eve 2011 in Lynchburg, VA in my new apartment with my cat, having a quiet evening in, I would have told you to shuttheheckup. I wouldn't have believed you.
But, it's true.
I would love to make a list of everything that happened this past year leading up to me being here, but then I realized that I wouldn't know where to start. Because me being in this exact place (spiritually, not geographically) is something that has been stirring for the past 5 years. God always wanted me here. He was always beckoning me to become radically obedient to Him- to forsake all just to gain Him. He was always asking me to take His hand and follow His lead. He was always saying, "Lindsay... I have more for you."
And here I am: Asking what it is that He has for me. Wondering where this is leading. Praising Him for not giving up on me when I walked away from Him years ago. So very, very thankful.
Grace is something that astounds me. I look around my room and see so many things that I don't deserve. I see people on the friend list of my Facebook all over the world- people that I can call my own- and my heart melts with love that God has given me for them. I think about all the places that I have been and all the things I have been able to do and I am humbled.
This was a post from earlier this week when God was really moving my heart. My hearts are continually opened to His mercies and I am left silent. Things are not always sunshine, bubbles, and unicorns... but they are Good. Because He is Good.
Don't forget that.....He is Good.... Even when bad things are happening and you feel like your world is crumbling and you're crying so hard you can't breathe or watching someone you love pass away or seeing your loved ones make mistakes that are potentially jeopardizing their lives...... He is still Good.
Happy New Year to you and yours :)